February 13, 2013 10:02pm

La película La Historia Oficial (1985) era muy fascinante. En la película, Alicia hace su prioridad averiguar si la niña que ella y su esposo adoptaron es hija de una gente desaparecida. El tiempo se da acabo en los años 70, después de que Argentina pasara por la guerra sucia. Durante esta guerra mucha gente desapareció por causa de sospechas de enemigos. La película La Historia Oficial (1985), se basa en la memoria de Alicia y de otros caracteres durante este tiempo difícil. La escena más impactante para mí fue la escena en donde Ana, amiga de Alicia quien recién regreso de exilio, cuenta su memoria de las cosas horribles que le pasaron. 

Antes que Ana regresara, sus amigas, incluyendo a Alicia, pensaron que ella solo se había ido sin ninguna razón y sin despedirse. Después de una reunión entre todas las amigas y también después de unos pocos tragos de rompope, Ana revela lo que en realidad le paso y porque se tuvo que ir. Este escena es muy impactante porque demuestra lo importante que son las memorias para la historia de la guerra en realidad. Ella le dice a Alicia, con un dolor muy profundo, que fue torturada y violada. Esos actos son lo peor y los mas horrible que le puede pasar a una mujer y es algo que nunca se puede olvidar. Lo que mas me llamo la atención fue que Ana nunca le había dictado lo que le había pasado a nadie  y sin saber ella estaba inscribiendo su huella en la historia oficial. 

February 12, 2013 precisely 9:59pm

This will be a poem.

Your efforts are futile

I’m stuck bound to an unbreakable trust

a misgiving and misleading lust to him and everything he’s about what he represents and what he tells the world about me about us.

Its excessive lying its nothing when laid next to him to his hands his affection the mirror reflection that I’m not afraid to look through.

The image is clear first before it blurs because the road is sketchy and in bed the children stir from the nightmares and the uncertainty of what will happen when they’re awaken if reality will set or if their imagination will take over and let them be happy again.

My feelings yours are true are real and still we sit here contemplating and questioning our devotion and loyalty when there’s no proof of the certainty and we rely on nothing but words fixated on the simplest idea that we’re in love and nobody understands. Honestly honesty is not something I perfected because I was blinded and subjected to making you mine and most things were true but there was a percentage that I thought would serve as bandage to cover the wounds I inflicted on your pure body that I so menacingly took advantage of because we were both so young.

This is not a norm nobody has had this sounding like a bitter fairytale whenever our story is told confusion sets in then they feel our frustration and still don’t understand, do you understand?

I understand only because my love is strong because I’m bound to our fire without chains holding me back from my one life I have to live for myself and that’s exactly how I want to be because in my mind, I’ll still end up with you by my side.

February 11, 2013 10:05pm

I guess I’ll be doing weekdays only.

Today is a Monday and I want to just simply go through the happenings of my day.

I woke up at 745 in the morning next to the love of my life, Israel. What I feel for him is indescribable; upon opening my eyes and seeing this lump of human I felt so incredibly lucky. Nonetheless, I was tired. I keep asking myself, what is sleep, what is food and water and why do or should I need them to survive. The answer is quite simple, because I just do. This explanation is not enough for me. Even biology wouldn’t be enough for me. I don’t know what it is.

I headed out from the streets of downtown NYC to Trenton, NJ; a 3 hour commute in a drizzle of rain. This same morning I had a presentation to do on myself as well as an 8 page outline due. I had a Blog due for my spanish class and reading for my 3 hour family communication class. I was thinking of all this on the train back to my campus but with an eerie sense of calmness. I didn’t feel any notion of overwhelming stress or worry. I was perfectly happy. I got on the subway, the train, and the bus right on time all with less than a minute of down time between transportation units. I just felt good all day. And it was all because I felt so loved and cherished by Israel that I felt that everything that could go wrong was going to be the best thing ever because in the end I always had him.

I stepped in a puddle, I forgot my presentation powerpoint, dropped my pizza on the floor and got to class late twice. And still, today was the best day ever. I am doing my laundry, going to attend a meeting and going to sleep knowing that I am the absolute most powerful being in the entire universe. I love you, Is.

- E 

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intellectualradical:

We are not just beautiful, we are dark and powerful.

February 8, 2013 10:47pm

I felt alone today; the type of alone that you feel when you’re surrounded by a crowd of people. Then I thought, all of these people are a part of me. They are here just as much as I am here and they have a universe inside of them just as I do. Suddenly, I wasn’t alone anymore. I felt a connection with everyone, like an invisible line of energy connecting all of us together.

I thought about my responsibility, what I had to do and where I had to go. Today was load-in, a day where the participants of a theatre production get together and build and paint and decorate the set the show will take place in. I thought to myself, I don’t know anyone here. I have never picked at their brains and some people I don’t even know their names. But they are a part of me. They were with me in the whole that we all belong to. In that moment, I realized that I did know them. I knew them because we were made from the same stuff. I figured that if I didn’t have an ego that I could just plainly walk up to these people and connect with them. Here I noticed how much the writing of my sub conscious influence my decision making. I noticed that the through my parents I learned to be reserved with those I feel are superior to me. I felt it, but I didn’t want it.

I repeated to myself, these people are not better than me. These people are not better than me. I felt better about myself physically but I still could not summon the courage to engage anyone in conversation. But I didn’t have to, I had nothing to tell them. 

Walking back to my dorm today, it was snowing. I mentioned to my friend that people like us who lived millions of years ago probably could not survive a snow storm like this and they would probably die within the hour. I was feeling grateful for the equipment that we have been blessed with, not controlled by. I understand that our surrounding are only a manifestation of our perception but this an environment that we survive through that other could not. I am grateful for this perception. 

That’s for today.

-E

fitwarriors:

If one is born of love..why won’t you fight to get it back!
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fitwarriors:

If one is born of love..why won’t you fight to get it back!

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“Unleash your inner WARRIOR!”
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fitwarriors:

Your pain is my pain..don’t let you beliefs be the road blocks in your journey! Don’t let you ego tell you I’m showing off or know it all. Your ego does not want you to change or GROW. See the truth to reach true freedom. If you can see then you lack vision..a lack of imagination…you can get it just practice I promise!
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#universe

fitwarriors:

Your pain is my pain..don’t let you beliefs be the road blocks in your journey! Don’t let you ego tell you I’m showing off or know it all. Your ego does not want you to change or GROW. See the truth to reach true freedom. If you can see then you lack vision..a lack of imagination…you can get it just practice I promise!

www.guerreros.us
“Unleash your inner WARRIOR!”
#motivation #fitspo #fitness #fitspiration
#yoga #gym # #iphone #ripped #abs #bestoftheday #muscle #health #fitness #fit #nutrition #inspiration #fitnessaddict #cardio #training #instahealth #strong #determination #diet #gym #gymlife #success #universe #positive #chakras #meditation

#universe

jtotheizzoe:

A flaming double helix made of matchsticks, as photographed by Caleb Charland. An allusion to the “fiery conflicts” that take place within, and around, evolution?
(via The Finch and Pea)

jtotheizzoe:

A flaming double helix made of matchsticks, as photographed by Caleb Charland. An allusion to the “fiery conflicts” that take place within, and around, evolution?

(via The Finch and Pea)

(via jtotheizzoe)

"For every minute you are angry you lose 60 seconds of happiness"

Ralph Waldo Emerson (via stereoheartzzz)

(Source: randomtallgirl, via intellectualradical)